Happy Birthday To Me

Tell Them That It's My Birthday, Tell Them That It's My Birthday
When I Party Like That

Tuesday November 26, I got to celebrate my 22nd BIRTHDAY!!!!

But that's not when I started celebrating lol. I actually started celebrating my birthday a few days earlier, the 22nd. I usually have to celebrate my birthday a week before or a week after or even in December, since my birthday is close to Thanksgiving and most of my friends are with family.

So Friday November 22 after I was done with my classes, I waited until my roommate and other friends were done. We headed off to the 5:45pm movie showing of da da da DAAAA.....
                                                                   
                                                     CATCHING FIRE!!!!!

Starting from the left: Desiree, Lauren, Lisa and Lacey

Desiree (right) and I waiting outside to get our tickets :)

starting from the left: Me, Lauren, Lacey and Desiree outside the theater waiting for the movie

Catching Fire was an AMAZING MOVIE!!!! Jennifer Lawrence is such a great actress and she is just sooo beautiful! The movie is a must see as well as reading the books!

Well, after the movie we headed to an Italian restaurant Bucca for some pasta and dessert.

So when I ordered my dessert this brownie sundae (above) looked a tad bit smaller than in actual size. The thing was huge and I needed help from my friends to finish it, well at least some hahaha! :D

After we were doing trying to finish that sundae, we headed back to my house to say a quick "hi" to my mother and father and of course my Siamese princess Alina.

Finally we were on our way back to College Park for gifts and some birthday cupcakes!
As we munched on brownies and watched She's The Man it was almost 2:30 am so we decided it was time for birthday cupcakes and gifts.

Lacey (right)  lighting my birthday candles as Desiree (left)...does I don't know what haha :D

Finally I'm ready to blow out my candles and make a wish!

 That day was a lot fun! I didn't really get to celebrate my 21st birthday the way I wanted to because it unfortunately took place after Blackie's death so I didn't really have a party nor was I really in the mood to celebrate. My parents just took me out to another favorite restaurant Outback.

So I was happy that I got to enjoy this birthday! Plus the fun wasn't over...

Saturday night my boyfriend and I had a movie night where we just cuddled in blankets and watched Monsters University, since I loved Monsters Inc. He actually bought me the movie as a birthday gift and I am told I have another gift on the way!! I wonder what it could be!?!?!?!?!

Then on Tuesday November 26, my boyfriend and I had a nice dinner and instead of a movie, we just watched Psych which he got my hooked on! Lol. I had such a great day on my birthday even if it was raining.

But here is the thing, Tuesday wasn't just my birthday but it was also my 5 year anniversary with my boyfriend! Yes 5 years, and I can't believe it! We first met back in high school.

He was the football player and I was art student, felt like a typical chick flick haha. He asked me out on my birthday thanks to my friend Caitlin who told him it would be adorable. Yes, we have had our ups and downs but in the end I am glad that I faced some of life challenges with him by my side.He isn't just my boyfriend but my best friend :)

 But WAIT! My birthday celebration didn't just end after my birthday I had one more day of celebration and it was with my parents Wednesday November 27, and they took me to see for a second time CATCHING FIRE!!!!!! I know you are probably think again? I will tell you, yes a second time because I loved it and they wanted to see it so I guess I was lucky girl. Then they took me to a great Greek restaurant!


 This year's birthday is one to remember, and I am thankful to all those who helped make it a special one form me!

Remembering Blackie Part 2

Blackie's Dedication Video
" I Will Always Return" 

Here is the video I  dedicated to my Blackie for his One Year Anniversary, that took place yesterday November 23. I did try and include this video to the previous blog about Blackie but I faced a few technical difficulties. But with no further delays here is the video for my baby boy. I hope you enjoy :)

Remembering Blackie

Blackie’s One Year Anniversary 

Losing A Loved One 

On this day one year ago, my family lost a loved one. A car unfortunately struck one of our beloved cats, Blackie late during the night. It wasn’t until Thanksgiving morning November 23(last year) at about 7:45am that I discovered his lifeless body across the street in a neighbor’s driveway.

November 23, 2012 will be a day I will never ever forget. It was the day I lost a best friend. Blackie wasn’t only my best friend but I looked at him as if he was my baby boy, my child.

I remember waking up November 23, 2012 to my Mom sitting next to me on my bed, telling me that Blackie hadn’t come back the night before. Blackie loves to go outside and he usually comes back inside around 8pm if he misses that curfew he comes back at 11pm. My mom and I went outside into the backyard and front yard calling his name hoping to see Blackie running back to us. He didn’t. So my dad then suggested that him and I go drive around the neighborhood and look for him. At this time I could feel my heart beat begin to quicken. I tried my best to remain calm. After driving around for 30 minutes my dad said we should head back to the house and begin making fliers as well as get ready for Thanksgiving since my cousin and his family were coming.  As my dad was driving I just happened to sink in my seat (passenger side) as I did this I glanced to my right, and at that moment everything in my world went quiet….

I remember looking between a fence seeing black fur and a little white patch of fur and I knew at that quick short glance, it was Blackie. I literally jumped out the passenger side while my dad was still driving. Screaming out his name “BLACKIE! NO BLACKIE!” Running up the driveway to Blackie’s body tears rushing down my face like a waterfall, I fell to my knees and just hunched over his body. His body was cold as ice he had frozen over the night. I turned to my father yelling, “HE’S DEAD! BLACKIE’S DEAD PAPA!!!” I felt like I was in movie. Everything felt so unreal. I picked Blackie up slowly crying and cradling him like I always do. I walked across the street back to our house, my mom walked up to me slowly the sadness in her face, we were all torn by the discovery.

I brought Blackie to my room and just wrapped him up in a Scooby-Doo blanket and laid next to him in my bed kissing his little nose just wishing by some miracle that he would come back to life.

After a few moments my mom had prepared a little box for Blackie and we all sat at the bottom of the stairs around Blackie, saying our last good-byes. It was at this moment that Alina, my Siamese cat walked down the stairs and walked into the box and sat next to Blackie and bowed her head towards him. After a minute she looked up at us and then slowly went back upstairs. That moment all touched our hearts to see Alina come say her last good-bye to her companion but also her little brother. 

That Thanksgiving at dinner we made a toast. A special toast just for Blackie, giving him thanks for the joy he brought our family. He wasn’t just a cat. He was a member of the Moran Family, and he will always be.

We first got Blackie the second day we had moved here to Maryland back on August 1, 2001.  We were still unpacking boxes and getting all our furniture arranged in our new house. My dad and I had to make a trip to PetSmart to pick up some food for Alina. While there, like any curious child I wondered to the cat adoption room. I put my face up against the glass and peered in. There in the middle bottom cage I saw a little black kitten getting kissing from two little grey kittens. Turns out those grey kittens were Blackie’s sisters. It was a funny site to see. He looked so annoyed but it was priceless!

When my dad finally found me, I just gave him one look and pointed to Blackie. My father’s answer… “No”.

HA well that "No" didn't last long because just 2 hours later we found ourselves back at PetSmart ready to make an adoption. We were bringing back Blackie to our new home as well as his new home. I was excited to bring back another member to our family. I can’t say Alina was that happy but in the end they got along just like any brother and sister would. Sometimes they got along sometimes they don’t lol.

Blackie just had an incredible way of putting a smile on your face. He brightened my day just by his meow and his goofy ways. He was there for me in many situations where I felt hopeless and depressed. He not only comforted me but my Mom, Dad and Alina. 

My Dad looked at Blackie as his honorary dog. Blackie loved to be outside chasing the birds and rabbits and playing outside. He would always come back dirty and just plop on the floor like a dog would after a long day of playing.

My Mom looked at Blackie has her second shadow. He followed her around a lot and would sleep in her room at the foot of her bed since Alina would sleep with me and didn’t really like that idea of sharing.

Alina and Blackie like I said had your typical brother sister relationship. Sometimes they fought sometimes they didn’t. I remember if we left the house and came back we would find them sharing the same bed sleeping next to each other but they would soon move away from one another when we entered the room. They didn’t want to admit they loved each other haha.

I can say that Heaven received a very special angel that day. I am truly blessed that I have Blackie now still in my life but as my guardian angel. He does an amazing job looking over me and my family. He finds ways into my dreams where I can once again feel his soft black fur and hear his adorable meow. I can wake up in the morning and smile.

I know that in my heart my Blackie and I will cross paths once again and be reunited as a family.

I love you Blackie, my Booboo Boy.

In dedication to this day I put together a little video of Blackie. The song that I chose is by Bryan Adams and was a song from the movie Spirit. The title of the song is

“ I Will Always Return”

After Blackie’s death this song came on my ipod and it just spoke to me. It was as if Blackie was singing this to me. I felt so lifted and touched I cried and cried. It was truly a message from Blackie to me.

 I hear the wind call my name
The sound that leads me home again
It sparks up the fire - a flame that still burns
To you I will always return

I know the road is long but where you are is home
Wherever you stay - I'll find the way
I'll run like the river, I'll follow the sun
I'll fly like an eagle to where I belong

I can't stand the distance - I can't dream alone
I can't wait to see you - Yes I'm on my way home

Now I know it's true
My every road leads to you
And in the hour of darkness
Your light gets me through

You run like the river - you shine like the sun
You fly like an eagle
You are the one
I've seen every sunset
And with all that I've learned
Oh, it's to you I will always, always return

Finding Myself Again

 "Eyes Like A Shutter, Mind Like A Lens"

Bringing Photography Back To My Life

Photography is a wonderful way to create art and capture the beauty around us.

I use photography as a way to relieve stress that is clogging up my mind. Photography was first introduced to me when I was in high school. I was actually going through the first stages of my Depression at the time and my photography class really helped me to gain some sort of positive energy even though I was feeling extremely low and feeling helpless. It was a way that I could capture my feelings through photographs which was a way of releasing the pain.

Since high school my skills have developed more but there is still more to be learned and I can't wait to learn more and take more pictures now!

Just want to clarify that I only took about a year break from actually going out and taking pictures and practicing my skills lol.

It was over the course of the last 3 weeks that I have picked up my camera a lot more, to go out and have spontaneous photo shoots with my friends. And I am thankful that they are willing to help because since I have been taking more pictures I truly feel that I am filling up a piece of me that was lost.

Below are just some of the pictures that I took with my friends, I hope you enjoy!  :)